I’m having a bit of a hard time at the minute adjusting to life with two children. There, I said it. I feel ashamed to admit it really. I feel like I should be basking in my maternity leave sunshine and enjoying every moment and I’m not. Truth is that it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be, having another child. I feel guilty for thinking it’s tough as I know lots of people are in worse situations than me and cope with far greater difficulties. But after a couple of months of thinking postpartum hormones would settle down and I’d stop feeling so numb I had to admit to myself, then to Bird, then to the world via this blog that I’m not coping brilliantly.

I feel relieved though to get it out there. It feels good not to hide the feelings. The more people that talk about post natal depression the better I say!

I’m sure I’m going to get through this just fine but for a minute I think I’ll let myself accept that there are some dark moments in amongst the many, many light.