What do I want to be when I grow up?

Boy dressed in fireman sam outfit

A future fireman maybe?

Someone asked Sun this very question last week and he answered, “a grown up”. Sometimes I love the simplicity of childhood. It got me wondering whether or not he’ll have a strong desire to do one thing or another from a young age. You know, like when someone says they always knew they wanted to be a doctor, or that they started dancing before they could walk.

It’s difficult not to look at the things Sun enjoys doing and watch his personality develop and not begin to think about what he could be good at or which way his life might lead. I sit on the ‘nurture’ side of the ‘nature vs nurture’ debate  when it comes to most things and I’m very aware that by me ascribing certain qualities to him I may affect what he decides to do with his life.

I hope in some ways that he does have a strong calling to do something. I think I would have liked to have had a strong idea about what I wanted to do from an early age.

little girl at nursery

My 2 year old self

Instead I’m very much a generalist, which isn’t necessarily such a bad thing according to this article that was in Psychologies last month. I’ve always chosen jobs that suited my life at that point and let life lead me into this job and that. It means I’ve tried lots of different things and had some fantastically diverse experiences, and been able to live in different places and adapt to whatever life throws at me.

The flipside though is that I don’t really feel that I have a career as such. I’ve never stayed in the one occupation long enough to really feel like that’s my area of expertise. Jack of all trades, master of none, would be a bit of a pessimistic way of looking at it.

Why am I thinking about this so much at the moment? Well, Shine is nearly 9 months old and I’m thinking I want to go back to doing some work, but what exactly, I’m not sure. I don’t want to return to what I was doing before I had her, and I don’t want to do what I was doing before I had Sun, so I’m left with thinking about new options.

I want to do something rewarding. I want to do something that means I can still spend time with my children, so part-time really or working from home. I need to do something that makes sense financially, so earns enough to pay for childcare with a little left over. I don’t want to be earning just to pay for childcare. I know I’m not the only one with these criteria to consider when they return to work after having children. I’m mulling it all over and will hopefully come up with something to get excited about in the new year. In the meantime though, a teeny part of me wishes I knew what I want to be when I grow up!

I’m linking this up to Yellow Days‘All in a day’s work’ linky, where she has asked people to link to their posts about work. Go check out the others. I’m very happy to see I’m not the only one who’s unable to answer the question in my post title ;-)

Yellow Days

One response to “What do I want to be when I grow up?

  1. Great post, thanks for linking up. It is much harder once you have two, isn’t it? I’ve found doubling the childcare costs has ment I’ve had to go back full time to justify the costs and I’d really have prefered to go part time for a little while like I did after E. On the upside I do really like my job (most of the time) so I shouldn’t complain. I think my urge for a ‘career’ is much less strong now I’ve got kids and I definitely push myself less now. I guess it’s good that it’s less stressful but I miss the sense of achievement occasionally.

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