Do you make them? It seems people fall into two camps: love em or hate em. I am in the latter. I feel as if I’d be setting myself up to feel inadequate 12 months down the line if I haven’t accomplished all I resolved to do. I feel a bit slack that I haven’t done the breakfast dishes yet at 16:15 so I don’t need to feel the disappointment of failing to achieve the big things.
The start of a new year is a bit like the sight of the first bulbs of the spring pushing up through the earth. Something happens, I can’t help reflecting on the time just passed, the future to come, and my internal voice is often that of Ferris, saying:
Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.
I don’t make resolutions but I do think I need to consciously think about what I want from life for the next year. Afterall, if I can’t visualise it then how am I going to make it happen?
Last year it was crystal clear what I wanted: to move house, move out of London and return to work. At this point last year I had spent the previous 9 months on maternity leave doing little else than think about what I wanted to change, while enduring sleepless nights and baking cakes galore.
This year it’s not crystal. It’s only stopping to think about this that makes me realise I should be thanking my lucky stars rather than complaining about Bird not taking the bin out again. Seriously, if my beef at the moment is the unfair division of labour in our household then I need to get a grip.
If nothing monumental happens this year I will still be happy. Some years you think, I want things to change, I need things to change. 2013 can relax. I’m not putting pressure on it to deliver big changes. If those around me stay healthy then this time next year I will be celebrating a great year. If I continue to end each day loving my family more than the day before despite their many annoying habits, and they love me back, then 2013 will be a hit. Hang on, those things are quite big…
I just hope 2012 has laid the foundations for 2013 to be another great year. Happy new year people – whether you have massive plans to shake things up, or are just focused on getting through January! Can’t wait to see what’s in store for everyone, me included.